I started writing a blog post and it turned into my next eBook AVAILABLE NOW “5 Minutes of Chaos that Changed My Life”. There’s a lot more to this story than what I’ve discussed on recent YouTube videos and Podcasts but I don’t want to cram it into a blog post that won’t get fully read and besides…I hate rushing. That said, the real nugget of gold that changed my life is what I’d like to focus on. It’s not about climbing. It’s not even about risk management or diabetes. Simply put, it’s about the story that we all tell ourselves. Here’s an excerpt from the book:
As the dim pink glow of the infant sunrise bled across the horizon I felt heart drop into my stomach. “Hey Martin, hold up?” I croaked at my partner. He was grinding up the still frozen snow slope towards the several hundreds of feet of unroped “approach climbing” that intervened between us and the start of the route we’d come to climb. The familiar feeling of low blood sugar stifled the words in my mouth as I attempted to explain to Martin that I had to take some food and rest.
The day prior–lugging a 45 lb pound pack up 5 hours of steep trail before making high camp at Applebee Dome in the Bugaboo mountains I had gotten by with eating almost nothing more than a few handfuls of Brazil nuts. We had a short weather window to approach and climb the massive Bugaboo Spire via it’s Northeast Ridge–a classic climb that is not technically hard but is deceptively big. Speed is safety in the mountains where the grade of the moves are of less importance than the fickle weather which turns on a dime and can transform idyllic summits into lightning rods.
“I hate rushing. That’s the only thing that makes a 2:30 AM start worthwhile” I thought as we trudged out of camp earlier that morning in the pitch black. Now I was looking at our time advantage evaporating as I checked my CGM like a nervous tic. I knew my blood sugar would come up but I also knew that the cold would slow my digestion. “We might be here a while. Are you sure this is a good idea to keep going?” I don’t like starting a big day in the mountains on a low. Martin just nodded back quietly as we sat watching the dawn break over the horizon. The little pinholes of light creeping through the darkness across the glacier dimmed in the twilight and revealed themselves to be other climbing parties who eventually passed us as we sat.
Sometimes you can do everything right and still lose out.
Objective reality is that I am a type 1 diabetic. I can’t change that. The story I tell myself about how type 1 diabetes impacts me, limits me or motivates me–that creates and shapes my reality. That is fully in my control. We tend to think of our story as a result of our reality or circumstances–not the other way around. We often see people getting irritated by the narrative that the public has about type 1 diabetes. It certainly can be frustrating but it’s a lot less of a concern when we have fully engaged with the power that we each have to tell our own story rather than live in the shadow of someone else’s. It doesn’t matter if other people believe it–we tell it to ourselves so that we believe it and then we live it out in reality.
This concept really hit home while climbing in Canada with Martin–and that’s what the eBook will really dig into–as well as the short film I am working on about our time in the Bugaboos. Remember that our Patreon supporters will have free access to this (and all future) eBooks I write as well as early access to the film as it goes through the various phases of production! Subscribing to our email list is a simple way to make sure you don’t miss anything and stay up to date with our publishing and production.