The last several weeks have been filled with something I am not accustomed to: waiting. Waiting for the computer to show up. Waiting to download Final Cut Pro to begin editing (it’s not a snap on 256k data speeds!) and most of all waiting to really have a clear vision for making this documentary.
Climbing is something familiar to me. I recognize the dangers and the terrain. This helped me through the project and in many ways, I never doubted that I could go the distance physically. Now I am facing a challenge that has a much less certain outcome!
I have returned to training for future climbing endeavors and I am also preparing for the SoCal Ragnar relay event with the Insulindependence Team. It’s an honor to be joining these folks who are all accomplished runners–and I am WAY outside of my comfort zone in the scope of distance running.
I am looking forward to these processes that each have placed me squarely outside of my comfort zone in the Vertical world. That’s what I’ve been preaching, so now I have to embrace that mantra of challenge in all it’s manifestations. I will get my ass handed to me as I train–and I will find value in that process!
I have gotten to spend more time with the Insulindependence community due to the upcoming race and this has led to my thinking about how I can better fit into serving the Diabetes community to really empower people rather than just blog about it. Talk is cheap. So is blog content. Willingness to flail, that’s where all the claptrap begins to take on meaning.
I have begun to see that my thinking about all of the aforementioned issues has been limited. Very “in-the-box”. From feeling attached to a very specific type of documentary style for no good reason to thinking of climbing training as pulling down and going up rather than looking at the benefits of cross training and building my weaknesses!
This is a significant moment because I have an opportunity to recognize that things don’t “have to” be any given way. We can build our own construct. Try something different. Push my limits–not in order to find another comfort zone but rather to find greater strength and perspective to keep pushing.
In the coming weeks I will be seeking the uphill path. I will be frazzled and at times discouraged. But if there’s one thing that diabetes has taught me to accept the failures as part of the context and framework necessary for triumph to exist.
Happy Monday friends; lets not wait or make excuses to buy time. The easy way always leads down and the little things we do, moment to moment add up!