It is not the beginning of a matter that is important, but the ending.
After an exciting month (to say the least) filled with detours that I could not have foreseen a year ago when I began planning an itinerary for Project 365, I am looking forward to finally getting back on the road and trying to regain some adherence to the original schedule of destinations. While I could not have predicted the changes to plans, I also would not change anything that has happened–giving up some control of my own life has been a consistent theme that I have been encountering– and embracing that through recent events has been a struggle as well as a blessing.
Sharing the project versus satisfying my own athletic desires has been a consistent dichotomy that I have faced this month. Some of that was precipitated by the death of the Dragon Wagon which was unavoidable, but there were many more days this past month or so that I found myself going through the motions of climbing to “satisfy a requirement” like some philosophy course squeezed into a summer semester of college. On the other hand, the validation and love that I have felt from those affected by Project 365 in the past month has been equally overwhelming in a positive way.
The point of this is not to belabor my emotional struggles (the ups and downs that I have alluded to recently) or to cop to some psychological problems resulting from them (except possibly denial?) but rather to refocus my efforts. Motivation to climb while dealing with unintelligible chaos in my personal life has been my biggest challenge so far–but I know the answer lies in embracing that challenge and actively (pun intended) placing myself in an environment where I have no choice but to prioritize my climbing.
By this weekend I will be packed up and heading to Utah (I still have temporary tags on my car and need to finalize registration) and then I will be attempting to catch up with my itinerary in the mountains of the Pacific Northwest. I have made the decision to prioritize a different style of climbing–rather than placing as much emphasis on finding a partner and sharing a rope, I will be pushing the limits of what I can reasonably do without a rope. I have wanted to get into the big mountains and I will not let scheduling conflicts bar my way. There is a great deal of climbing that can be reasonably attempted as such and I feel that this type of challenge is appropriate for me to dive into as a means to refocus and also to have greater opportunity to capture footage that would otherwise be overlooked if I were climbing technically harder routes.
I am hoping that the opportunity to connect with partners and mix things up on a rope could present itself, but I am not going to hold my breath. I have a lot of climbing that I want to do and there is no better time than now to get after it. My plan is to venture into the mountains through the middle-end of September when the weather will begin to drive me back to warmer climes (and climbs!). There is a good deal to climb in Oregon, Washington and British Columbia. I am actively soliciting input and ideas, so any classic low 5th and easier peaks and routes would be welcome suggestions. Additionally if there is opportunity to coordinate meet-ups and climbing outings, that would be awesome too–I know I have spoken with a few people about partnering on some climbs but as of now I have no definite plans other than getting back out and getting vertical in a more substantial way! 160 Days left. There is still time to pick up the pace, one decision at a time.
Mt Hood, Mt Adams, Mt Jefferson
Mt Sir Donald/Bugaboos and surrounding area
Wind River Range WY/Sawtooth Range ID