Got done finished unpacking the car. Its a pretty sweet little rig we’ve got, even if it’s no chick magnet! I will have a short video coming up in my next blog to show a little bit of that process. Also, we got some of the episodes of “It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia” transferred onto my Zen media player which may sound like a fools errand but I know that comfort TV will be much appreciated when we are a few months (or weeks?) into this.
So the task at hand is looming large and intimidating before us. So much to do, so little time blah blah blah. At the end of the day I have been realizing (largely through Stef’s input) that we just have to do what we do and not reinvent the wheel. Climbing and going all over the place in beat up cars is what we do. It always has been really. Why the anxiety now?
Lots of people are watching–and more are checking us out every day. This equals pressure. Don’t screw up. Don’t get sick or injured. Don’t forget to film every moment of waking life. Don’t forget to eat. Don’t forget to take your insulin. Don’t forget that eating sh*tty food will make you tired and unable to perform. Don’t forget to check and double check your tie-in knot…
It is a struggle to stay true to one’s self and one’s mission. People watching, looking to you, makes you want to impress people or live up to their expectations. Of course we don’t want to go broke either so there is that piece of the puzzle. Let me rephrase that. We don’t want to go so far into debt that we have to deploy our golden parachutes and piss off all of our constituents! Seriously though, being broke is part of the price that you pay to do this kind of thing and it is a sacrifice that I have found to be totally worth it, and it is nothing new to us. It’s just that sometimes when you see almost everyone else running the opposite direction you DO question if everyone knows something that you have completely overlooked…then again its possible that the opposite scenario is the case!
Forcing myself to relax is something that I have learned (and am still learning) to do when I am climbing. Perhaps that’s another reason why I am drawn to what people perceive as a “risky” activity–because it hones my ability to dial in my brain and see that none of the stuff that I am currently freaking out about really matters.
Climbing is what I do. I just have to go out and do what I do. Like I always have.
Thanks for putting up with my little locker-room speech! I have a video to put together and I am going to be making notes about our dietary approach for the road, so you will be hearing more about those spell-binding topics this week!
In other news, BG (blood glucose) has been good–running a little low but thats ok by me–I like eating!
Also, I would like to point out that the weather here in San Diego is AWWWWWWWEEEEESOMMMME!!!!! I can’t wait to be that annoying asshat that is always rubbing it in that their weather is FANTASTIC in the middle of the winter to the vast annoyance of all their friends. Yep, I am going to be THAT GUY.